Alone in dark
My sky is so grey that i couldn't feel that warm of the sunlight.
My mood is "CRYING",i can't stop my tears from rolling down.
A word ,A sentence that i spoke out by accident got blame from my friens.
I doesn't mean that, i trying to rephrase the sentence but i wasn't a chance to explain.
Blame Blame Blame,all the Blaming & Blaming...
They might not mean it but seriously it hurt my feeling, i did it in not purpose.
Whenever i say or do something,there will be a explaining.
I tried to hold my tears but the more of blaming make my tears fall like tap water.
The more i try to endure,the more of tears coming out.
I Really can't stand it, Reallt can't can't..
i had enough of her blaming, her beating, her complaining etc..
i wanna say out to her but i scare to hurt her feeling and i endure it.
I been bearing and enduring stuff since past few years,being a person that wasn't me.
I try to be hyper,be cheerful infront of others.
I don't want my parent or friens worry for me, i always cried during the night when no one realised.
I cried when i was bathing,and i couldn't different which is my tears and water from tap.
I cried when i was in my room,don;t bare to make sound.
Scaring that my elder brother and my mum outside the room will heard me crying.
Why? What happen to me? Stop crying !!!
I think most likely is becoz of that incident on 3 years ago barhs?
Must endure,Must be patient,Must Cheerful.. Yuxuan i know u can make it de..
NO more tears from you..BARE>.<
